I’ve had this flare for the past 6 months.. despite weekly biological injections and starting methotrexate 2 months ago, my condition progresses. My spine, SI joints, peripheral joints, my eyes, my bladder, my bowel and heart are all affected.
Every night the pain awakens me as my body tries to cement me into a statue. Every movement is painful and there is no comfortable position.
I’m exhausted but finically I need to work full time to support my kids. So I put on this mask and pretend everything is ok.
I force myself to swim every morning as exercise is essential as after an hour the stiffness wears off. I take the horrible medication but it doesn't make any difference.
I’m losing hope as I’m in pain everyday…will the flare every stop.. or is this it. This hideous existence that I’m so tired of fighting.. I feel like I’m being punished.. and that it’s never going to stop until I give up and let it take everything from me