For context I live in the U.K. and while the NHS are brilliant and free, the waiting lists and pressure on them leaves them limited in some ways.
I am also young, healthy and “fit”, I go to the gym everyday, I am very mobile and don’t look like I’m in pain… but I am.
I manage the pain really well, I am active as this is what, for me keeps the stiffness and pain at bay. I avoid sitting and laying down as even 20 minutes like this and I feel my back start it get stiff and then sore.
I am also aware of this condition as my Grans Dad had it and it was a very severe form.
I am 24 and first experienced symptoms aged 20, during lockdown. I had one phone appointment during lockdown that was utterly useless but for the past year I have been going back and forth to physios, blood tests, doctors and scans.
My MRI came up as some bulging discs but not in the right area, my blood tests came back without the gene and no inflammation in the blood but all the doctors have said that none of this is conclusive due to bloods only showing inflammation during a flare up (which like I said I manage well) and the MRIs tend to not show things until it progresses more.
They have gone down every route and all 6 of the physios I have seen have said that this is the biggest likelihood BUT to be diagnosed here you need to see a rheumatologist and they have said they do not want to see me.
They have said they do not think they will be able to help me right now as the medications and treatments they will offer will potentially affect my quality of life. They said as I manage so well they want me to continue to manage until it is unmanageable and then they will intervene.
It has left me at a loss, I do not know how to explain it to people and I feel like because I am undiagnosed I cannot get any help or support or understanding because no one I know has it nor do people truly believe I do as I haven’t had that official sign off from the professionals.
I do not want it to worsen, which in some ways it has when compared to the first onset but if it does not worsen I will remain in limbo but also I do not want medications that will affect my day to day life and I am just feeling confused and alone.