I support you in your decision. And, I am sorry you are afraid of the side effects of the vaccine and afraid of having a conversation about it bc of the insanity going on. You are in a safe place here ... having a vaccine or not is a very personal thing and you don't have to explain to people the "whys" or "why nots". Only you know your body and what is good/bad for it. I just tell them to mind their business.
I, too, and on my 4th biologic - that isn't working - and I understand your pain. I did choose to get my vaccines, but I will remain out of crowds and, restaurants, continue wearing masks, and keeping a low profile for long while. I have to tell you - the 10-day flare after each vaccine was NOT fun.
We have tickets to the Eagles concert coming up and we aren't going. Very sad about it bc we already had to postpone it once, but I need to protect myself. My daughter chose differently - she will be going - masked up and distancing as much as she can - but that is her choice. She understands, I can't see her for 10-14 days following but we are okay with that. We have boundaries put in place as a family, and that's what's important - at least to us.
I hope that you find a regimen of biologics, pain control, and anti-inflammatories that works to reduce your pain and inflammation from spondyloarthritis. We are here to support you. warmly, Rebecca